My Pornography Addiction was About Power and Control, Not Sex

Amazing INSIGHTS in this Share and the points about Lack of Control and POWER” when maintaining recovery, a life long journey indeed!

CAT

I probably should have recognized this early in my recovery, but I’ve come to realize that my addiction to pornography was just an extension of who I was at the time: Somebody struggling greatly with a lack of power and control to the point I’d fool myself into believing I had both by almost any means necessary.

I recognize that this comes from the faulty survival skills I developed as a child when I was being babysat everyday by a woman who was mentally unstable. Looking back, I can now recognize the severe obsessive-compulsive disorder she had, along with a handful of other issues that led to an environment of multiple forms of abuse and one where I didn’t feel safe.

My outlook on life then, as it was for most of the next 30 years, was to simply survive to the next day. It didn’t matter how you got…

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One thought on “My Pornography Addiction was About Power and Control, Not Sex

  1. HERE WAS MY REPLY On His Post:

    Amazingly insightful indeed, as it proves MY point of why Step One is the hardest in my own opinion and if those who choose a 12-Step recovery! Me? My gambling addiction and alcohol abuse were so bad I needed ANY and EVERY single thing I could get my hands on to maintain recovery and DO THE WORK TOO.

    Learning to come to terms of true Surrender, we are Powerless, and NEVER Had Control over our Addiction is not only Vital but a Critical FACT we have to learn to ACCEPT when beginning our life long recovery journey … Cat

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