I have always been a believer that ‘God’ brings people and interactions with others in our lives at certain times on our journey called life while maintaining recovery from gambling addiction. It might be for a season or a lifetime. Either way, it happens for a reason.
Let me explain.
In 2013 we had to move from Southern Oregon to Arizona for my husband job and was offered a new supervisory position, but it was here in Arizona! See, we were struggling financially in Oregon as he was not getting 40 hours per workweek. He does now in Arizona. And believe or not, as an author I am still a penniless writer! LOL and by no means a rich recovering addict too! We got here and moved into the cheapest complex at the time and what we could afford.
We have been living in only in a 525 square foot apartment and have for the past six years. Now, the complex is getting ready to go under full reconstruction and chosen not to renew ANY current tenants leases as ours ends October 31st, 2019. We finally got our notice letting us know.
So now, ready or not, “NOT!,” we have to move by Nov. 1st, 2019 and are not in a full position financially to move! So far (and big thank you to my “Keys Family” and my friends Randy Grimes, and Kelly who owns ‘The Atlanta Water Gardens’ and my Best Friend Author, Kim Carter have all chipped in to help my hubby Tom and me with some financial gifts and support to help out. As it sure is expensive to come up with first and last months rent and rental fees and deposits …
So we are touring a few new places but need to raise $900 more for “Move-In – Pet Rent and Deposits “…
Many of you know my backstory of being a woman maintaining recovery and dually-diagnosed with mental health challenges, this could become a deeply stressful event for me, a possible source of “Relapse” mode. Thankfully I have learned and gained experiences and so I have a solid “Relapse Prevention Plan” in place for life events such as this. I have also learned through hard all my recovery work that a ‘Relapse’ would only make our situation worse!
Now since I am dually-diagnosed while maintaining my recovery, I battle mental and emotional challenges with depression, mood disorder and the worst comes mostly from my agoraphobia disorder which makes it even tougher to be diligent and NOT complacent while in recovery.
So, relapse is just not an option for me. Not to say I have not had any stress and fear over having to move. Well, I have. Like fear of the UNKNOWN or will it be a safe environment for me. But, again, RELAPSE is not an option as I know how quickly I would spiral and be right back where I was almost thirteen years ago, on the edge of a third suicide attempt.
Yes, I am being real and raw about where I have been in the thick of my gambling. I CHOOSE to not let the fear, stress, and trauma of having to move, the financial stressors, and the “unknown” get the best of me.
But back to my first point of “God Brings Others to Us”?
We looked at a beautiful complex and toured the townhome and complex. The girl who is helping us, Brenda, she told me she needs to buy my book for her mother. She proceeded to tell me her mom has lost everything due to her gambling problem. Now I cannot tell you all how many times I have had people tell me this. Many who find me from reading my column in “Keys To Recovery Newspaper” and then email me or reach out on my recovery blog and tell me. So and so has a bad gambling problem.
Of course, I told this wonderful girl that her mom is not alone and I can help give you some resources and? She let me mail her mom my BOOK “Addicted To Dimes” right from Amazon to her mom’s address! I told her it may make her see she is not alone and many can get addicted or have a problem with gambling.
I also gave this amazing girl the numbers and website addresses to “The Arizona Office of Problem Gambling” and ‘The National Council on Problem Gambling’ Hotlines and a list of Gamblers Anonymous meeting places here in our area of Phoenix, AZ. Again, I hope in sending my book to her mother, her mom can learn that she isn’t the “only one” who has or had a gambling problem and all that I went through will hopefully give her mom a nudge to get some help.
Know what continues to perplex me about this disease? Why isn’t anyone talking openly about it? Why is it still such a taboo addiction?
It is why I advocate and share my experiences like here in “Keys” and in a variety ways to begin “the conversation” and bring gambling addiction, an addiction that requires no substances but as dangerous as all other addictions.
It is why one in five problem gamblers WILL attempt suicide as you dig yourself into such a “Hopeless and Financially” draining state that you can’t see any way out. I still remember those days of my deep addiction and all the feelings of fear, shame, guilt, and feeling all alone and suffering in silence. No one needs to suffer from this addiction. And suicide is never the answer. SUICIDE is only a permanent solution to a temporary problem from this addiction and cunning disease. And just like any other disease, it can be treated. We can learn how to live life in freedom from gambling addiction as I and many have.
So back to having to my Life Event of having to move unexpectedly. Again, my recovery friends have been helping us reach our move-in goal to help raise the deposits and pet deposits to move. If you would like to help? Visit my dear friend Kim Herron’s, FB Fundraiser for us called Cat and Tom Lyon’s 911 Moving Fundraiser … I and my husband Tom will appreciate any and all #donations and Blessings friends. We have found a new Townhome and Were Approved this past Friday …
I also hope anyone who has a problem with Gambling and READS this post will know that you are NOT ALONE and Recovery is possible. I and my blog here is to SUPPORT and HELP you recover! Reach out and EMAIL Cat anytime … firstname.lastname@example.org 💕🙌✨🐱 AND WE ARE GRATEFUL & Thankful Friends.